I sat at the terminal in Doha after a fourteen hour flight. I was restless, tired, and excited to be almost in India. Immediately, I began to discover a variety of things that were catching my attention. A Muslim man had a beautifully painted rug in which he performed his devotional practices; there were prayer rooms, strange music, and beautiful art everywhere. While on the layover there was a family of Muslim women and children dressed in traditional attire, the little boy came over with a beaming smile wanting to take pictures with us. He tried his best to say things in English and we high fived and exchanged cheerful smiles. I was jet lagged but couldn't help the feeling that apart from all the drastic differences as people were all really just the same inside and this little boy was a shining example that the world doesn't need to be such a violent place.
The
flight from Doha to India went much smoother. I watched some Bollywood movies
which are amazingly great. They all seem to be about an Indian girl who is
about to enter an arranged marriage and just prior falls in love and eventually
in some hilarious way ends up with her goofy Casanova. As we were touching down
I listened to Trevor’s Halls “Chapters of the forest”. A song I was deeply touched
by about his time in India. He talks about his time reflecting on the Narmada
which is a holy river. It is said here in India that while Lord Shiva sat in
his meditation he created so much heat in his body that he began to sweat. The
Narmada River is the formation of this sweat and an auspicious place. Most people
have heard of the Ganges, probably the most famous holy river in the world
which by bathing in her waters all negative karmas can be cleared but the
Narmada one only needs to look. As we touched down I just thought of that if I
ever had the chance I would need to sit on the Narmada for many hours perhaps
days on end saying sorry and saying thank you. I sometimes have these panging
feelings inside of me where I just need to ask for forgiveness and I need to
say thank you.
I’ve
been in India for two weeks now and its one of the most beautiful and unique
places in the world. I love it here. I wake up at 5:30 am every morning because
the neighbors begin their pujas and chanting which wakes me up to holy songs
and Sanskrit tongues. Then the neighborhood street dogs all begin to howl and
bark, vegetable carts with merchants making their presence known like hotdog vendors
at a baseball game yell loudly, soon the honking begins, and India comes to
life. I do all my necessities and on the way to practice I pass by cows, street
dogs, birds, school children, families, and chai stalls. All of this presented
with an Indian backdrop of bright colors, saris, strange sounds, mountains, red
clay earth, and cow poop everywhere. It’s wonderful.
It’s
really interesting here with so many different westerners from all over the
world making the sacrifice to come and practice Ashtanga at KPJAYI with Sharath.
I can’t articulate it but there is no way you come here and endure all the sacrifice
and craziness unless the practice has deeply touched you and changed your life.
The brick like mattresses, the constant diarrhea, the power outages, the
constant noise, missing home, sitting on the floor EVERYWHERE, the vegetarian
diet, and mostly at least for me missing Mexican food. I also really hate doing bucket showers and
bucket laundry is such a pain in the ass, garbage fires though, they take the
cake, they are the worst thing about India. But we’re all here and all these
people have their own stories and are practicing with so much devotion it’s
pretty great to get a glimpse into and meet them and to slip into the rhythm of
living here.
I also got insanely lucky to make the trip with a bunch of my teachers and friends from Miami Life Center back home. MLC is an Ashtanga studio back home that really changed my life and started a lot of healing for me. There’s like ten of us from MLC and it’s basically a Miami takeover. It’s a party. Eddy and I are going to get Indian tailored 305 hats or shirts or something very soon because to not would just be a travesty. Tim and Kino are here too and their just the best. I get cringe worthy shy around them cause I am kind of star struck but wow their such inspirations and beautiful people. Kino just got fifth series too I can’t even comprehend the mastery and hard work that culminated in that achievement and I am very happy for her.
I also got insanely lucky to make the trip with a bunch of my teachers and friends from Miami Life Center back home. MLC is an Ashtanga studio back home that really changed my life and started a lot of healing for me. There’s like ten of us from MLC and it’s basically a Miami takeover. It’s a party. Eddy and I are going to get Indian tailored 305 hats or shirts or something very soon because to not would just be a travesty. Tim and Kino are here too and their just the best. I get cringe worthy shy around them cause I am kind of star struck but wow their such inspirations and beautiful people. Kino just got fifth series too I can’t even comprehend the mastery and hard work that culminated in that achievement and I am very happy for her.
There is
the social and daily living aspect to being here but there is also the intimate
and internal lessons you gain by being here. I think of India as the mother, stern,
strict, presses all your buttons, reveals all your hidden insecurity’s but possesses
a great deal of love. I’ve only been here for a moment and have a long time to
go but already she has shaken me countless times. The lessons so far have been
to work on being kinder with myself and to try to open up. I can be a closed
book and it’s hard for me to express who I am. I struggle with that a lot because
of earlier traumas that haunt me quite a bit. I have so much going on inside
and things I want to share but it feels trapped. On an asana level my body is
capable of things I never thought it would be able to do but sometimes
emotionally, psychologically, and energetically I feel like I can’t even touch
my toes. So here I am trying to heal, live righteously, and cultivate some kind
of devotion. Trying to be good with myself and trying to be appreciative of
life. It’s really wild and far out, and I will forever be in gratitude. Today I
was sitting on a rooftop eating chocolate cake without a care in the world
looking at Indian coconut trees, enjoying the sunshine while drifting in and
out of a nap with friends.
I
really believe that life needs to be lived sincerely, humbly, and with much
appreciation. I believe a lot of spiritual work has to be done. I believe in
the power of asana practice to help you pierce through the physical to the
emotional and spiritual planes. I believe in kindness and in love. I believe in
being as much of a conscious human being as you can possibly be. This place
helps me to do that hopefully with a little bit of help from above I am able to
keep walking on my path and gain the confidence to march to the beat of my own
drum, because what a strange wonderful drum I beat.
All Glory to God. Om Shanti Shanti Shanti